currently listening to: Ayos lang by Siakol, Broken Heart by Motion City Soundtrack:
matagal ng isyu ng mga tao toh.... sino ang pipiliin mo yung mahal ka o yung mahal mo? ako dati, yung mahal ko. i'd take the chance of waiting for the person i like to eventually like me back kahit minsan alam kong hanggang doon na lang talaga kami, sige aasa pa ako, wait in vain at mag-aantay na mauntog ang ulo sa kung saan para magising sa masakit na katotohanan na hanggang kaibigan lang talaga ang kaya. i always stuck to the person that i like never the person who liked me. bakit kaya, tanong ko. kasi naman ayoko namang paasahin lang yung taong gusto sakin. kung ayoko talaga sa tao, hanggang pakakaibigan din na lang kaya kong ibigay. kaya ayan, para siyang cycle na "Kung sino pang minamahal sya pa ang ayaw sayo"... kinakarma ba ako? feeling ko sa sobrang mapili ko, wala ng dumating sa susunod. sabi ni roy, magiging matandang dalaga ako. hay, wag naman sana. i have so much love to give but refuse to give it to the people who ask for it. how stupid is that? will you take a chance with the person who loves you but you, on the otherhand, doesn't exactly feel the same way? will you keep on waiting for the person you love to love you back? kaso ang madalas mangyari ganito, when you do feel the same towards the person, that person has finally found someone in place of you. malas.

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okei, so its 2:30 am and kuya allan still has not sent in his part in our case study. oh where art thou?!
i'm so swamped with school work and i'm already sleepy. i've been procrastinating the whole week and last week. gahd! i don't feel so good this semester, i've done so poorly this time and now it's for real. finally had a chance to blog today when all the work i'm suppose to do is piling up. deadlines are out to get me. seriously!

i've no idea on what to write. where have all the ideas and brain cells gone to? maybe i should just go to sleep i might dream about what to place on the papers i'm suppose to be writing.

i wonder if Jhai's already off to dreamland and is once again having nightmares about our case study report for the nth time. haha!

i wonder if kuya allan has a part on our case study? i wonder if he's up since he told me he's a nocturnal being.

i wonder who my mom's katabi is.

i wonder if i'm ever going to finish this paper before dawn.

i wonder if i could stay up all night like ming2.

i hope tito or tita don't wake up and find me doing this, it might mean bad reputation once again.

should i write what my cousins insist on calling a "movie date"? which i think is not.

i most likely won't be seeing the guy anymore.
acquaintance, that's all he is. nothing more.
yeah, so much for love life. pfft.

i wonder when my boyp would come.

will he ever?

okei, how come i wonder about irrelevant stuff when i'm still with nothing in this paper.

i've checked my mail for the gazzilionth time and still no sign of kuya allan. dude, wtf?!

oh wait, maybe he sent it off to my yahoo mail. hold on.

zuma is fun. haha!

nope, no sign of kuya allan on yahoo either.

please don't let me do it in the morning pretty please.

i'm going to conclude the damn thing even without you if you're not going to send it in

3....

2.75....

2.5.....
2.25
1.

sorry, i'm going off to sleep now.

but wait off to the movie thing, the movie was happy feet. not really the date movie, righgt? plus, there wasn't anything there considering the fact that all we did was watch with a few small talk like, "you want some (of my chips)"?, "no thanks", hahaha! hihihi!, "nakakatawa", "cr muna ako", "sige.", "anong nangyari", "wala masyado", insert more laughter here , oh, and also some coughing, "giniginaw ka?", "ha, hindi, mejo." and that was probably there was to it. said goodbye and left in a jiffy.

like duh! ano kaya yun. hay.

but still, he said i was cute! yeah! she shoots and scores! and the crowd goes wild! woohoo! being the feelingera-assumptionista type ayun, kinilig naman ako. haha!

he even said things like "sana mas maaga kita nakilala" yeah! ang saya, talk about air in your head! XD

so yun, exactly a week after valentines kami nagkakilala. yun lang. erk, did not and will not progress any farther, thank you...

:)

hay ewan ko. hayan, ititigil ko na ito at magseseryoso

a new post after a month. pfft.

8:57 31.01.07
currently listening to Stab my Back by The All American Rejects
mood: dunno.
okei. so instead of starting my paper i'm writing this one! duh, this is nothing new, seriously. this day is so crazy. i went to shaw blvd. all by myself! seriously, i went to mrt, bought a ticket and rode the train. when the train was about to leave, i kinda was stuck in the door because people wouldn't move! the door closed after THREE freakin tries! before the train moved, the man on the PA said, "kung masira po ang pinto kayo rin ang maaabala. wag maging pasaway." gahd, i felt sooo ashamed of myself. anyway, i was so alert and attentive trying to here what station we were in so as to not miss my stop. when we were getting near shaw blvd. i was making my way through the door to my right, and guess where we were suppose to go out of... to the left! a man asked me if i was going to get out, i said yes and he said the other door opens. gahd, that's strike two! and when i was descending the stairs going to Starmall, i looked at my phone for the time and then put it in my pocket. what i forgot was my pocket has a really big hole that i didn't bother sewing. so my phone went all the way down and the jeepney drivers laughed at me! gahd, how many misfortunes do i have to endure?! fortunately, i arrived safe and sound at my destination, Nayong Kabataan. sure was a nice trip since i can go to starmall all alone! woohoo, the feeling is rewarding. hehe! i can go lakwatsa anytime to megamall and shangri la and starmall! yeah baby. only if i have the money. hahaha! oh well still feels good accomplishing something on your own! funny when you think of all the misfortunes, you'll realize that they're minor setbacks and won't really matter. haha!

i thought i'd be blogging of happy things today. i thought i would still be in a dream, i guess it was cut short. di ako alam sasabihin ko. basta ganito na lang: never go in whirlwindy things, leaves you trashed and damaged. di ba? destruction lang ang dala nila. so keep yourself safe. pero di naman ata lahat nasisira as long as you have firm ground, you'll be ok.
suddenly, he decided to say

when darkness turns to light it ends tonight.

gumising kasa isang panaginip na naging isang bangungot. it wasn't fake, it wasn't real either so what is it? i don't know. who cares now, anyway?