You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

saw Nica and Pearl at the main library. crap, i don't even know her name anymore. we talked a little and they told me that they were both looking for their professors because they will be filing LOA. sabi nila "bagsak-bagsak" daw mga grades nila. their parents don't know what they are about to do. ang galing din magscheme ng mga babaeng yun. haha, plano ni Pearl na sabihin sa Univ. secretary na nagpalit sila ng address para hindi matanggap ng mga magulang niya yung grades niya. well planned talaga. kawawa naman sila. pero ginusto nila yun. first year and you're turning delinquent, all because of an org. maybe they really love the org. ganyan talaga pag matindi ang iyong pagmamahal sa isang bagay. you do crazy stuff. anyway. wala lang.

FMA na!!!!!!
*squeals

hi, today looks like a fine day. i don't have classes, that's why. but i have to go school this afternoon for a psych experiment and a group meeting for our report in 108. anyway, i feel so good today. in a few minutes, i would stop blogging and get to work on my first assignment in my soon-to-be-almost-kinda-like-already-org, UP Pagdumala! i'm in the marketing committee for the youth camp to be held this NOvember 4th at dagupan city! i'm suppose to call companies and ask convince them to sponsor the said event. i am very nervous. but i can do this! tatawag lang naman eh. how hard can it be? well, i'm excited though. a committee with *toot* yay!

i have to get going and better start on that. i couldn't access dbm anyway, the system's been down for a while now.

kaya pala pakiramdam kong mamamatay ako nung tuesday dahil nahawaan ako ni flory ng kanyang sakit. pagdating ng wednesaday eh, sobrang nilalagnat ako at mayroong clogged nose. hay naku. hell.. i had no cwts so ok lang. thursday, i still didn't make it to school. friday, i didn't attend pol sci. ok lang. nothing much happens there anyway. i had to attend 108, those are the subjects you jusy won't dare miss. not because you love hte subject but because it's hard to catch up when you miss a lesson. hay..

i already forgot how it feels to sleep early until i got sick. i had to sleep at around 8 or 9. ahhh sleep.. yumm!!

anyway, our org, PAGDU will hold a youth camp in pangasinan, i think in dagupan. i'm in the marketing committee and i love it there! why? because *toot* is on that committee too! yay! ang saya! sana nga totoo yun at matuloy yun. the youth camp is on time for darcee's debut on november. cool. people will be there. di ako loner. haha.. hopefully, he would be there. hehe. (cross fingers!)

i need ten pieces of clothing for our rummage sale on the 24th. eto nga't wala akong maisuot eh, magpapamigay pa ako. have to go. cousin needs computer.

i just got home from school. i haven't change my clothes yet. i just had to write this down. ok and stalk someone too.. haha.. i'm addicted to him. urgh. pathetic really.

oh well. i think i'm going to die here in qc. i inhaled a great deal of smoke from vehicles today. i barely can breath. i think my lungs is filled with dust, smoke and everything but clean air. i miss the province. no pollution. trees. lots of them.

my throat is sooo itchy... i want to cough to relieve it from the itchiness although it's only for a split second. *sigh..

my eyes hurt. i think i'm going to have a headache but still i'm here. right in front of the freakin computer, glued.

i feel so weary... torn. longing. missing something. craving for something. incomplete.

hay naku. the sem is nearing its end. i feel like nothing has changed. except that i have new crushes, i'm a sem older, that's a school year minus 1 sem, i have new knowledge. (ok maybe some things changed.)

ano ba naman ito. inaantok ako, but i try to fight it dahil wala lang.

i'm procrastinating again. malapit na ang exam sa econ 11 ulit. pati sa pol sci. i haven't started reading anything in our report 108, i blew my speech for comm3 (sabi ko na nga ba dapat nagdemo na lang ako eh!). hay kumusta naman kaya ang grades ko ngayon. sabi nila dapat ang isipin mo ay may natutunan ka, grades doesn't matter. hay mga tao talaga they try to fool themselves in anyway possible. di ba naman ang grades follow your performance. paanong may natutunan ka kung di mo maapply ang sarili mo? hay naku... pero para di maging ipokrita, i too say that bulls**t to myself at times. pathetic talaga..

hay naku, di ako makapagpre-enlist ng maayos. i still don't know what subjects to take. magiging loner kaya ulit ako sa aking mga subjects? sana hindi naman na. ayoko na. ayoko ng magmukhang kaawaawa.

just letting loose my thoughts. naiinis lang. frustrated. depressed.

yay, this friday, i experienced how a formal interview goes...

it was hell... haha.. i cried because of my "father story" and how i hate everything about myself.

god, i was so embarassed in front of everybody in the room, i couldn't remember anything, i was stutering and mumbling like a baffoon. urgh.. they were frying me and i couldn't answer straight. i wanted to run, i didn't know that i can if i wanted to but if knew that maybe i would have ran in the first five minutes. haha!

i'll never forget ate cecille's name EVER! LEONCIA MA. CECILIA M. DIMAYUGA.

hay, grabe pamatay si ate keneth super taray!

si kuya edu, love ko na. kala ko siya yung mangangain sa akin talaga...

yeah, i have a family now in this university. hay salamat after a bajillion orgs that i tried to join i finally have somwhere i belong. UP PAGDUMALA!

anyway, that night i watched a couple of tv shows about father-daughter conflicts, damn! what was with it. it's as if the world was conspiring to remind me how sucky my relationship with my father is.

sa wakas, tapos na yung problema kong yun. i am done with responsibilities about my report in cwts. now, i have to do 3 papers, 1 for comm3, for psych, and 1 for anthro.. *sigh... also i have to read a whole book for my comm3 exam this tuesday. hay, i have to do good because i'm failing in polsci.. haha.. no wonder i couldn't answer my f.i. question about the org taking sides with a political party. oh god help me.. hay naku... need to strive harder and focus..

well, i have to go. a headache is starting to kick in. ang dami kong pinagsisisihan. next time ko na lang ipopost, pati yung matagal ko nang pinaplanong pagself-assess ko. it has been long overdue but i always seem to put it aside. urgh.. ano ba ito. saan ba ako patungo..