yay, this friday, i experienced how a formal interview goes...

it was hell... haha.. i cried because of my "father story" and how i hate everything about myself.

god, i was so embarassed in front of everybody in the room, i couldn't remember anything, i was stutering and mumbling like a baffoon. urgh.. they were frying me and i couldn't answer straight. i wanted to run, i didn't know that i can if i wanted to but if knew that maybe i would have ran in the first five minutes. haha!

i'll never forget ate cecille's name EVER! LEONCIA MA. CECILIA M. DIMAYUGA.

hay, grabe pamatay si ate keneth super taray!

si kuya edu, love ko na. kala ko siya yung mangangain sa akin talaga...

yeah, i have a family now in this university. hay salamat after a bajillion orgs that i tried to join i finally have somwhere i belong. UP PAGDUMALA!

anyway, that night i watched a couple of tv shows about father-daughter conflicts, damn! what was with it. it's as if the world was conspiring to remind me how sucky my relationship with my father is.

sa wakas, tapos na yung problema kong yun. i am done with responsibilities about my report in cwts. now, i have to do 3 papers, 1 for comm3, for psych, and 1 for anthro.. *sigh... also i have to read a whole book for my comm3 exam this tuesday. hay, i have to do good because i'm failing in polsci.. haha.. no wonder i couldn't answer my f.i. question about the org taking sides with a political party. oh god help me.. hay naku... need to strive harder and focus..

well, i have to go. a headache is starting to kick in. ang dami kong pinagsisisihan. next time ko na lang ipopost, pati yung matagal ko nang pinaplanong pagself-assess ko. it has been long overdue but i always seem to put it aside. urgh.. ano ba ito. saan ba ako patungo..