okei. i am going to have two exams tomorrow, no wait... today IS tomorrow. it's 3 am in the morning and still wide awake instead of resting for the big exams. thing is, i haven't read anything yet. *yay me!* i crammed a paper due tomo-today.. and i just focused on the nat sci exam since i need to catch up my grade there more than env sci. crap, i hope i get a high score in at least one of them if not both and not a failing grade in either of the two.. or else i'm going to strangle my self to death.. FOR REAL! ok, maybe not! ALthough i want to but i'm such a big fat Chicken to do so.. i texted me mom and guess what? i had the big scoop of the day. my big brother, kuya Sante decided to follow the footsteps of our big brother, kuya Mark and dropped out of school. i have two out-of-school brothers, beat that! although there is still no news from the school, we are assuming ,since my cousin, ate diana, saw a text message in kuya sante's phone saying and i quote "akala ko di mo gagayahin ang kuya mo." (at least that's what mom said) from joann, his girlfriend, who by the way left for the states last 18, saturday and won't be back after a year. anyway, back to my brothers, i hope my younger brother, mig, who prefers to be called miko now coz he says mig is uncool, don't turn out to be like the kuyas. *crosses fingers (and toes,if possible)* GOD, why do i have such a nice family life. first my dad left my mom for another woman and then he gets the BITCH(pardon le French)pregnant with a GIRL!(i'm suppose to be an only daughter but that doesn't mean i accept her as my sibling, so basically i am still under the illusion that i am though i'm not or am i?) then my two brothers drop out and my mom is trying hard to keep everything normal(what an understatement! am i being punished.. i may never know, unless i die now and be like rachel weisz in the constantine. i cried but what the hell can that do?! i want to kick the crap out of my father and slap mmy brothers, somebody please give me the permission but i won't do that coz i love them, my brothers that is not my dad just to shake them off their insanity.

gaahh, still have nothing for tomorrow's exam well, oh well... i have to go sleep now if i want to wake up just intime for an exam (env sci) where i barely know anything. oh and there is a reason behind me slacking we have 5 topics to discuss but only had 1 meeting so she(our prof) just sent us our reading list. nice huh? laziness took over... urgh!